For Spring Break this year Curt, the kids and I all went to Nacogdoches, TX. We met my parents, my sister and her son, and Olivia and Kaleb (Megan's kids) there. My folks rented a cabin and we all stayed there together. We had so much fun. We had golf carts that we drove for hours.We played baseketball, shot the bow, played games, told stories, sat around the fire, and so much more.
It was also a very emotional trip. Every time I look at Olivia I see Megan. Sometimes it makes me sad because I miss her so much but most of the time it brings me comfort to know a piece of her lives on through her children. It was very special for us to all to be together. Every now and then you could sense what everyone was thinking... the only thing that would make this more perfect was if Megan were here. But you could feel her all around us, all of the time. On the way out of town, we drove by the cemetary one last time and about 10 minutes after we got there, mom, dad, Kelli, and Jake all pulled up. It was nice to have that time with ALL of us together before we went home. I thought a lot about if I should take the kids to visit her grave. And Curt and I both agreed that it is important for them to see how much we love Megan and miss her. It is also a good way for them to see how important it is to be good to one another and love each other all the time.
I had a lot of time to think on this trip and mostly I thought about how important family is. I spent a lot of time after Megan passed wishing I could go back and do so many things differently. I wish I would have been a better sister, a better friend, a better listener. The list could go on and on. But most of all I wish I had spent more time with her. Just hanging out or even talking on the phone. I just didn't know her time here would be so short. Time with family is such a precious gift and I am so thankful for having that over Spring Break.
